New readers start here; Our heroine had successfully lost over 60 lbs, but has slowly gained back a stone. Shocked at the shocking state of her, she resolves to do without sugar for 100 days.

And that you all should hear about it, you lucky people.

Now read on…

Dinner was late last night, but it meant I didn’t get to bed until late. I didn’t fall asleep till midnight last night.

Beloved Son had me away at 4.30 am.

I am tired!

Interestingly, my tiredness saw all the negativity come flooding back, with a firm conviction that there was no point in going swimming as I wouldn’t do well and there was only a large chance of making a fool of myself.

Well, so what? I told myself that it didn’t matter if I made a fool of myself or not. I don’t have to be the best, it’s bloody unlikely that I was going to be in any case. Thinking that I had to hit the water with everything I’ve got was just putting me off. Going for a swim in of itself was really more than enough.

And I went for my swim, and I completed the 1500 meters, with an easy 50 pace. I’m bleary eyed with the tiredness, but I am still going and there will be more to do before I get to rest. I have, however, coped with my negative attitude today, and that is something. I didn’t talk myself out of it, so well done me.

No, it’s not much, but I’m taking it.  Tonight, however, I think we’re getting takeaway and an will have an early night, I’m dizzy with the tiredness.